January 2011
50 posts
Everything is so over.
I’m upset, to an extent. It’s not taking over all of my attention. It’s not using up all of my time. I’m upset, but not heartbroken. I think I’ve mentally prepared myself for this anyways. This was bound to happen. I’m following through with my plans of action. I’ve not given in. I won’t give in. This is over. They will never be the way the were....
“If we have learned anything from the mass media, it’s that the only people...”
– Chuck Klosterman
hullolynn:
whereimfromyoudiewithyoursecrets:
...
I've never felt this much anger before.
You’ve lost ALL of my respect for you.
You lied. Games were played. This went wrong.
You’re everything you said you’re not.
You’re everything I didn’t think you were.
I don’t even know how to feel about you.
“If we have learned anything from the mass media, it’s that the only people...”
– Chuck Klosterman
I’m a moth, who just wants to share your...
I want you.
And it’s completely obviously. Everyone who knows us, they know. You know, I know, everyone knows.
Listen
Writing
a 5 page paper that is due friday. OH JOY. All I want to do is read. But I’m sitting here miserable about to write a paper when my thoughts are not concentrated towards this at all.
I hate everything about you. Which is a complete lie. I wish it wasn’t. You make everything seem okay, like you’re doing n o t h i n g wrong, but you really are. Everything that spills out of your...
taylorrock:
I can’t pretend I don’t care when...
I never know what to say to you anymore.
When I have something to tell you, I want to call you right away to tell you the news. But, I can’t. Now you want me to tell you about myself, but I can’t. I don’t want to open up to you anymore. I can’t open up to you anymore. If I do, I make it worse for myself in the long run.
Going to lunch
Sorry, but I cannot sit around and wait for you to call me in two hours to hangout. I cannot wait. I hate waiting. You’ll be mad, but you could’ve have called earlier. Who knows if you actually will end up calling me later. Whatever, I’m going out, not sitting in. See yaa
Happy birthday to me.
LEGAL.
Hopefully spending my day with this one particular person. Out to dinner tonight with the family? Hopefully doing something gooood.
Honestly
My job is not babysitting children, nor is it picking up a child from school. I go to school all day and after school, all I want to do is go out with friends, not do your job. Especially when I have work that night at 5, I need some kind of life. Thank you.
Everybody is right about you.
“And I don’t want to call you, but then I want to call you, ‘cause I...”
– Third Eye Blind
Trying to read
A book in class while watching a movie. Its not the movie that is distracting me, its hundreds of thoughts going through my mind. All of these thoughts relating to you of course. I don’t know what to assume or think. I don’t know if I should be mad or hurt. I guess this is the reality of growing up. Its realizing that people are going to lie and hurt you. People only watch out for...
I want to hurt you.
Not physically, I want to hurt you emotionally. I want you to feel the hurt I feel. I want to hurt you, hurt you so bad you can’t sleep. Hurt you so much that you think no one else cares about you. I want to hurt you until you feel helpless and hopeless. I want you to feel like me. I want to hear from you right now only to hurt you. Only to make you feel like me.
“That’s pretty much how we get through our own lives, watching television....”
– Chuck Palahniuk
Not enough sleep
last night! I didn’t go to sleep until almost 3 and was up at 10. That isn’t nearly enough sleep for me. >:( Going to slave at Kelly’s Roast Beef from 12-8.
Happy new years!
Sat in tonight. New years is just another night. It’s socially encouraged to go out and get drunk. The last way I want to spend the new year is cleanig up peoples vomit and driving them home. On the bright side this amazing person left work early and was almost home and turned around to bring me a coffee to my house because I said I was tired. It definitely made my night better :)
I think...